My weight loss journey

Alright, alright. Everyone knows that i have always struggled with my weight and keeping it off, now is no different. I have decided to really stick to getting my weight down and being healthy. I already eat some of the foods that are good for me, but now i am going to eat only the foods that are good for me. That means no more french fries and pizza, two of my most favorite foods. It's not that i can't have them i just have to have them made differently. No more fatty oils and fried stuff.

I'm not doing it because of any medical conditions, it's because i don't want any medical conditions. My doctor is surprised that i am healthy for being heavy. For those of you who don't know, my mom was a diabetic and had a serious heart condition before she passed away. I remember her haveing to test her sugar everyday and during the last couple of years, she would have a hard time breathing. I would have to give her insulin injections everyday twice a day. She hated it, i don't blame her it hurt. I miss my mom very much, she was gone from us at an early age and i don't want to die that young. I know that if the good Lord wants me home with Him, He will call me home when He wants. I just don't want to give Him any reason to take me at a young age.

Mom use to say, that you reep what you soe. She said it didn't matter if you were being mean to people or just mean to your body, ya get back what you give ten fold. I have a lot of making up to do with my body. I want to be around to see my childrens children. I want to be a grandmother and spoil my grandbabies. I have a lot of saddness, because my mom is not here to see my little girl. Plus, I can't call her up and find out what to do next. I know that i have family and friends who i can turn to, but it is not the same at all. My tia Judi has stepped up and is doing a great job, trying to give me the advise that my mom would have given. There are times when Anaya is doing something and i catch a glimpse of my mother. Those few fleeting moments mean the world to me. I know that my mom would think i was being silly and that i shouldn't miss her so much, but i do...a lot.

Ok, no more saddness, I plan on loosing 40lbs in 4 months. 10 lbs. per month I'm told that that is a smart way to do it. Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers, the Lord knows I need them! If you have any good ideas I would love to hear them. I am greatful that God gave me a wonderful husband who stands beside me no matter what, he also loves me no matter what size i am. Thank you baby!